Like me!

I want to write something to help me stop thinking so much but I don't want to sound geeky.

I'm listening to classical music whilst studying. It helps me concentrate.

I have real issues focusing.

BORED IN MY ROOM

I'm sitting in my room trying to study but its not going that well. I havent been able to study at all today. Starting to feel stressed about my exams. Its not even that hard really, why am I making such a big deal out of this?

Because I was so eagerly trying to do anything else but reading through my books, I had a look through my old pictures from last year. You can really see the difference in my face. I've grown a tummy as well. I've never had problems with my weight ever. And I eat... A LOT!

Well something needs to be done. I need to start eating less and exercise more. My skin looks pale and unhealthy as well.

Ok, I gotta start making something happen, I've been on the same page for hours now!!!

Peace

DO I LOOK AS DIRTY AS I LOOK?

I've started to listen more to heavy metal now. Well, I don't know if its heavy metal really, but its definitely hard rock. I really love how ... hard and aggressive it sounds.

I watched a boxing film just now - Girlfight with michelle rodriguez.

Damn I love the looks of that woman.

Shes just too hot!

Watching them train really made me miss the time I was training boxing. It really is the best thing ever feeling fit, and I loved how the coach was so strict. I'm thinking about going for a jog maybe once or twice a week just to see how that would f

eel. I mean I haven't trained boxing since I was 17, but I haven't trained well in over a year now, its starting to make me feel uncomfortable to be honest. I'm not overly obsessed with my weight but I am keen on keeping myself in shape at least. Its just that I HATE running, and that without a partner. Going to the gym is

too costy + is far and the same goes with martial arts. Now thats nothing to even consider because its triple the pay!!! So I guess I'll just have to bite on the sour apple.

My birthdays tomorrow.

I just want my money put in that savings account I opened yesterday.

I've been searching for jobs to make that happen this week. I was actually hoping I'd continue with my dental nursing course, so we'l

l see if I get that kind of chance by a dental practice (I've already applied for a few).

Heres some pic you might enjoy laughing at...

Guess I wanted to illustrate how to brush your teeth and to not look good doing it...

Image two is taken from when I was recording my lastest upload on youtube. Can be tiring having to re-take your vids because you're not happy with one small fake sounding tone or some facial expression I made that made me look weird.

OBSERVE: My mouth was totally open, naturally to make me look more sexy ofcourse.

Ok, tired.

Gonna study and then sleep.

Goodnight, God speed.

ON YOUR KNEES

If you look like this ----->

You know where to find me! ;)

NEW PICS!

I had some new pictures taken.

I needed to do that, its been too long since I had new ones up on the website.

What do you think? :)

MY DOGS + SIS

i wanna runaway

NT NT NT

2 hand-ins left and then I'm for for Christmas break! I can't believe its already half-term now, I'll be turning 21 in less than a month!

I need to find myself a job now so I can start saving some money.

I want to start some kind of business but I haven't really figured out what exactly I want to do. I want to work abroad this summer, maybe I'll go to Sweden, I've been thinking about that for a while now.

There has been a lot of fuss about the new government wanting to form a new legislation for tuition fees if you haven't already heard about it on the news. University sntudents have been protesting for weeks now. Today the decision has been made and I'm in chock.

They actually are going through with it! With 21 votes more on their side!!! Stupid liberal-democrats. THEY ARE GOING TO RAISE TUITION FEES UP TO 12,000 POUNDS BY 2012!!!

If thats the case then I'm out of here.

BBC LIVE

And then there was rain...

Even though you are miles away

from the centre of guilt

I am still here

Because of you

The way the sun lights your world, bright with its might

The same way it shall also set into dark, as you have set mine.

The forgotten one*

LET IT SNOW *NOT*

OMG its snowing in UK now and everything has been shut off. Took me 4 hours to get home from a usually 50 minute route from London Bridge to Orpington. I was sooo tired, the pic if from when I finally got off from the train and had to walk all the 25 minutes home because my mom couldn't drive in the snow. It was impossible!
Snow is not that bad though, it has it pros. Look at my dawg hahaha, he gets that snow stuck on him which he love to eat it!!! He's the cutest :)

Off to write a lab report which is due TOMORROW (!)

God have mercy, pray for me!

A

ANNOUNCEMENT

Fishplate - made by my sister.

Uni went well, and tomorrow my parents are coming back from Sweden, so I gotta clean the whole house and find time to make some calls as well.

Apparently my blog is getting boring and dramatic.

Just thought I'd lay it up for you readers, this blog is about my life.

I write what I feel like writing, and its all real.

So I'm sorry if I've "disappointed" some of you, I honestly don't know what you expected. My aim was to involve people in my personal life, but if I'm boring you out I'm sorry to hear. You dont have to read!

With that said I'm off to bed

Wishing all my dear readers a goodnight and...

Dont forget

Music is life

Peace

Why are you doing this?

SUMMARIZED BIOGRAPHY

Ayda is a talented young woman who has been burning for music since childhood.

Her parents began to notice her talent when she was at around eight years of age.

It wasn't until at sixteen when she took the music to a new level, and this thanks to her father.

Aydas father who was a great role model for her during her early teenage years said that a real artist writes their own songs, are original and play an instrument. This was when Ayda started learning the guitar.

As an imitation of the guitar playing, she also then start to write songs, and wrote her first song when she was only sixteen.

"Many people can sing, even better than I, but being an artist is so much more than that." said Ayda.

Aydas texts is very much about love in different forms, feelings of betrayal, hatred and relationships, but there are also social issues that she takes up in some songs.

"It's all about conveying a feeling to the listener, I want songs to sound magical."

During her early writing years, Ayda found a lot of her inspiration from Lauryn Hill, which has contributed not only to one of Aydas most heavy tracks from but has also influenced her style today.

Ayda- who turns 21 January the 8th 2011 - graduated in 2008 from an international high school in Gothenburg, Sweden with more than mediocre grades. She moved that same summer to England to study and has now been living there for more than two years.

She is currently studying the Psychology degree.

Ayda can not see a future without music, and she can't live without it.

"i just want my music to be heard. I don't really care about the rest".

AM I LYING TO MYSELF?

or am I just egocentric?

you said you needed time,

i get that.

but it aint fair either, not like this.

i just dont understand, i can't make sense to any of it

and even though i try to avoid thinking of it, i can't stop but thinking

if you're trying to tell me something else

unexpectable

but on second thought maybe it isn't that unexpected

either way, i hate being in the middle lane

the situations just getting more stressful.

by the day

Robyn 'Indestructible' (Official Video)

I'm a long way from home...

MY LIFE

I really need to do this....

Make it right and make it work

I just wish I'd be better prepared for life

I mean I don't even know how to pay a damn bill.

Talk about being independent.

I have no hope for tomorrow

Most of the times

The present is only there for you to get passed it.

And I just wanna shut the hell up till we reach newyear. So I can finally reach to you.

For a minute or two at least.

Goodnight

DONT FORGET ABOUT YOUR HEART

You know how people always tell you not to think with your heart but your mind?

When I was really lost, I went really low for a while and took advice from the wrong people.

But I did take a good piece of advice which has really helped me a lot whenever I feel the same confusion;

What do you feel, in your heart, that is best for YOU?

I realized I'd been rabbling about all sorts of things that were either good or bad, but never thought of what I thought was the best for me.

Think about that, and keep that in mind when you really are clueless as to what to do.

I'll never stop listening to my heart.