ILL TAKE WHAT I CAN GET

I had the most horrible nightmare last night, which I hadn't had for so long.

The nightmare lasted the whole night, I've never had anything like it before.

I was waking up several times in the middle of the night, just to fall back into the same dream again. You could guess how bad I felt in the morning..

It was as if my fear had become a reality, and even though I was prepared and waiting to embrace it, when it did happen, I was appalled. Damn that sadness was overwhelming.

Rejection at its worst degree.

I fear letting go, I fear coming close.

Fear of being used, fear of getting hurt again

A nice young man I know put the words in another way I hadn't thought of before.

"Knowing he wants you and at the same time knowing he can't be with you, he also knows he can be with you passionately. Why would he say no? It's not like he only wants you for your body. But he'll take what little he can get".

So the question is, should I say no?

1CLICK2FAME

Stevie Lang is a wicked vocalist and song coach who I met for the first time competing at the music competition in April last year.

Here is a picture of me and her at her studio in London, where we met again for the recording of one of my songs which will be uploaded on the website sometime this next week.

Loveyou woman!

Thank you for last time

Ayda

KING OF THE GAME

"People sell their soul just to play a role in the game"

I bet you've heard about that phrase before, or even said it yourself

Cheating on who you are and what you stand for to get your deal.

Thats what people usually think of.

I view it a bit differently tho,

It depends on how you chose to outplay yourself

To play your cards right that, that is.

I don't sell myself,

I don't act like someone else

I just work my around.

Thats a difference.

Sometimes you gotta do what you need to get what you want

Its crazy world, so you go crazy with it

Cause in the end its a game you're playing, but I'm the one setting the rules.

Man this sounded way better in the shower.

If you ask me tomorrow I'd say I don't know what I was talking about

Lol

RAPED VICTIMS TELL THEIR STORY...

...ONLINE!

I found this girl from sweden, who holds a blog aimed for anonymous victims of rape, child abuse, psychological and physical abuse, molesting and more..

Each tell their story and send it in to be published on the blog.

I want you to take a look at it here at www.detfinnsandra.blogg.se and have a read about each victims story.

its in swedish, so this is for all who can read swedish.

thanks.

ERYKAH BADY LIL WAYNE

SLICK.

THE REASON

He'll never know that he's the reason for this rhyme

He'll be regretting the love he left

At the times when he needed someone

One day realizing he never knew what he had, but then its already

gone

Hoping to take the chances now before they pass him by again.

The eye

OUCH

Hurt my finger yesterday, my lamp smashed against my desk and shattered all over the place, including my pinky finger. haha

Glad its getting stitched back together now though so its cool.

DID I EVER SAY, HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO YOU?

Guess not.

Its interesting though, that our paths meet on these special moments.

14th.
I think I will keep that date in mind.

I thought I might take some pictures from work and post it up here so you get an idea of how the practice looks like.

I have a gap at the moment so thats why i found some time to write.
This thursday theres an open day at one of the universities that i have applied for, so im going there to get some course information and check out the accomodation.

WOAAAW MAN, THERES SOMETHING GOING DOOOWN
I AINT GONNA GET DOWN BY YOUR BEHAVIOUR
HOW CAN I TRUST SOMEONE WHOS LYING TO ME?
SEE MAMA KNOWS BEST WHEN
TIMES GET HARD
AND PAPA HE ALWAYS GOT A JOKE
TO MAKE ME LAUGH

YOUR HEAD IS WANTED!!!

i was chosen as a wildcard on 1click2fame.

So i will be entering for competitions again starting march 1st.

I repeat, MARCH 1ST!

For those who want to help, this is the time for it.

Tell your friends about this, and on march 1st you will need to vote for me once a day for one week

R E M E M B E R

If i win, i will win 15,000 pounds aimed as a musical support

which i will need for various things but mainly a setup for my future demo which i then want to be sending out for big music labels out there.

So I need your help on this.

Support me now by spreading the word

Stay tuned

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