THE EYE NEVER TELLS A LIE

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Wednesday, March 25, 2009



I dont even know if I can hate you anymore

do you still see me?

....





Why cant I just have a
normal friend and just be normal without messing things up ?
I dont even know WHY it buggs me so much, and why each time I get close to someone that I just feel ... so damn vulnerable 

WHATS WRONG WITH ME?!

WHY CAN'T YOU JUST GO F*CK YOURSELF

I HATE YOU

vart fan tog du vägen


Saturday, March 21, 2009



Im
sorry I have been so boring.
Ive just had so much on my mind, feels like I dont even have time for my music anymore, which is pretty bad cuz I used to always put some time aside for that. These days, I just feel bad as soon as I start writing cuz of the stress.

Today we went for viewing a house in Orpington, and maybe we'll buy it. Thats wonderful because then we would live closer to central london. 

Soon I will be off to visit Sweden at the end of this month. It will be good to finally meet some ppl and hang out. Lol, havnt done that in a while

Tomorrow I will be doing nothing especial again. Same 'ol same 'ol..


A


Thursday, March 19, 2009



I never thought I’d feel so tired
The rain keeps fallin the tide keeps comin closer to the shore as I step back to save myself staring at the coast but no ones there, no ones there
I try to make a run for it but the presence in its past form seems to keep hunting me down Im breathless and fighting for some air because i never thought I’d feel so tired never thought love was this cold hearted
For you it never meant much because you never made any sacrifices in your life you came along without any thought you never thought about the consequences and the consequences has never laid the world up against you hitting you from every weak angle you have
You never had time run up to you like that like the tide on the shore was anything even real from you I cant be sure but I never felt so tired as I am now and hope has just seemed to fade out and die replaceed with shadows building up in the corner of my eye as it brings forth the sad goodbyes I try to make a run for it but I cant hide from you there isnt even a point of staying in light since the colors have changed baby the colors have changed and its made me blind its made me blind its made me blind the life doesnt go up or forward just forces me down forces me left behind
So I try to take a grip but I cant reach out to grab myself 
Its like I’m untouchable even to myself Im falling away because this is beyond me this isnt me anymore still its too real too strong making it useless to fight against for and I can see myself walking alone with the shadows around me with nothing but the pain and I never thought I’d feel this tired so I’ll just let it in because I have nothing more to claim, nothings going to be the same l’ll surrender myself to the waves and let the tide take me in its too late for me to save myself since I had so many attempts to get out out from this suffucating hole but all in vain, all the motion has made me feel like I never have been so tired in my life before this pain before this unbreakable chain before this pain before this pain.







Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Kesley Wild - Meaningless



Always were the kind of boy that I always hated.
You were quick and cruel and highly over-rated.
But behind my front was admiration.
Breaking my own rules has caused me great frustration.
I wanted to sort you out and color code and file you away.
You were a mystery to me and I guess thats what made me stay

Just go away I cant take this anymore,
Baby just stay I cant hate you anymore,
And Ill take what I can get.
Even if it’s meaningless,
And its Meaningless
Slow down


slow down down down, down

Nothing left here to see now
The crowd has all gone home
The debris and my efforts, it dried up long ago
Wish I could finish what I started for just this once
But the kill is never greater than… the thrill of the hunt
I wanted to understand you so much but my pride got in the way
Dealing with the Pr. Queens has never been my forte

Just go away I cant take this anymore,
Baby just stay I cant hate you anymore,
And Ill take what I can get.
Even if it’s meaningless,
And its Meaningless
Slow down
slow down down down, down

Oh we're just the same thing
We're just the same thing anyway