In case you had missed this one out ...

A dear friend of mine from Canada - Nima - had a song which he wanted me to sing on. A wonderful person who has helped support me a lot in my music.
This is the acoustic version of it, if you want to dowload the original one, its here;

http://www.megaupload.com/?d=3PR6APUU

A bit different than what I usually do, though I had a real fun time recording this song.

• ive been filling out application forms for jobs now and tomorrow im off to find the nearest job centre to request a national insurance number. apparently you need one of those when applying.

i didnt sleep much last night, was awake up until 8.30 am when my parents went for work.

another... interesting night.

well im sitting in my room right now with a cup of extremely nice tea and some banana chips

and im soon about to watch revolutionary road with my parents.

i had someone asking me for a few suggestions to songs to post on my blog so here are a few good ones before i leave that i strongly recommend anyone who's interested in slow music to take a listen to;

• Asa - Jailer (newest artist on my playlist! real cool song)

• Bon Iver - Blood Bank

• Bon Iver - Lump Sum (I listened to this song everytime I was talking a walk at night in Sweden, really weary)

• Coldplay - Green eyes

• Raphael Saadiq - Lets Take A Walk (Not as slow as the others, real nice funk!)

• Jeff Buckley - Everyone Here Wants you (this is my favorite song by Jeff Buckley, really sexy. If you havnt heard about him yet you really should)

• Diana Kral - The Girl In The Other Room (amazing jazz, really sets up a laid-back mood)

• Fleet Foxes - Blue Ridge Mountains (I love this band from Seattle, they have a very unique style, if you like this song then i'd suggest you listen to their whole album!)

• John Legend - I Love You and Take me away Love (classic)

• Fiest - La Sirena (looovely!)

i will go on forever if you'd let me, but i think this is good for now :)

let me know what you thought

heres some candy with diana kral - little girl blue

funny how things you thought didn't matter any more still has the power to impact you. or how one small gesture can change everything.

how small things, like saying hello, complementing your hair, giving a smile or telling someone you miss her can change so much.

i just felt like i needed to let something out and voila, i came up with a melody, it sounds different from my previous songs. very slow, very confusing (if you think im abstract in my songs - which i am - you will not make much sense of this one either.

but it still does make sense in a way. a song doesn't need to make sense, it still has a story to tell - but in in its own way. thats what makes it original, different.

anyways im really tired now. off to bed. more philosophy lessons tomorrow thank you very much and goodbye lol

ok... mentally freaking out right now and its giving me physical effects now too. damn it i need to calm down and breath

WHEN DOES IT END?!

to the kid from the sky

i guess after so long...

im finally starting to see things better

and something i think im realizing is

that you never really stood where i was

and i suppose its not your fault you never did

but i think im alright with that, or that i will be

ill just know that i wont give more than what i get

i knew though, that something like this was eventually going to happen

you. heading straight on, and you seem to make it so easy too

me im. better

but i wont say it hasnt had me going still

that was why the move was so hard on me because i felt alone and left behind

mostly by you

and it is mostly true because you sort of did at the time but i cant blame all that on you either, we needed that time apart.

anyway, i dont like talking about that.

thing was i really thought you did care

but what ive learned is that love has no limits

maybe you weren't ready for it

i wish you were

i dont feel like i know you now and the person you were before was someone different

the things that made you special

as if the mild curves has become sharp edges

ah fuck this maybe i didnt know you at all hahaha

but you got what you wanted now, i got that all the way from june 09 so help yourself

shit this message feels so f*ckin repetitive

i need to go eat now

ciao

i woke up just five minutes ago. what weird dreams i had.

weird as in totally irrelevant and confusing. many of the last things i dreamt was supposed to be things i remembered from my childhood. except that, those things never really happened. i dreamt of my friends' babybrother (whom ive never even met) and we were stuck together under water in some old building. but being under water wasnt an issue, i still could breath under it! haha weird. we eventually got out because we knew what key to use in order to unlock the "code" under water. lol so weird! it sounds so silly but i had to write it down. whats even more weird is what i dreamt after that. i cant remember how but suddenly i was at a really young age and we were playing football at a green and muddy field somewhere and i was in love with a boy. i cant really remember what happened inbetween other than the fact that this boy really tried to irritate me all the time and one day i "beat" him by taking down this flag from a pillar and everybody where cheering. then i was older and he was too. and we were together? a gathering of some sort- a wedding? everybody were happy...

i can only say we were together by the way he made me feel and the way he looked at me. its funny because ive never seen this man in my life (white, cherry lips, well equipped physic, tall and kind, which was totally opposite from when we were younger...)in the end of the gathering his fathers ex wife (his mom) had come and his father was suddenly so . this guy (i cant remember his name) said something that sounded like "dad has got his favorite drug again, look at him"

then we went out from some big brown two-doored gate and i suddenly hugged him and started crying because i was so happy.

the last thing i dreamt was when me and my family were just about to buy a big bucket of ice-cream mmm hahaha!

if anyone knows how to interpret dreams please let me know what that meant lol, id like to know.

oh my

my oh my

It has been a very... unusual week-end i must say. enlightening. My parents have just gotten back from Sweden, and ive learned how to make soup (and gotten pretty good at doing so)! we've been eating soup for the past 4 days now hahaha, my sisters getting sick at it. i should try out something new. but tomorrow. hmmm

i need to a job soon. gotta fix my CV and start making some money so i can get my driving license (first priority)

ive been wanting to visit my grandma in turkey for a while as well, maybe ill go there this autumn. i just need to get my life in order first. cant mess it up now...

with you i could try,

but i could never be unselfish enough because

i'd only want you for myself.

im working on a new video. will post it up as soon as im done with it, (hopefully tonight!).

so im off to it now

talk soon.

one warm second it's suddenly gone

the wall

you say you love

when you really dont

do you know love, the unlimited love

the kind of love that has sacrifice?

i loved you love, without fear, fear for the ice

now my fuel has no gas

im missing out on my diesel

not the new one but the old one

i miss the before not the after

the fragrance still lies around spread across my mind

a reminder of another life

i guess

after moments of nothing you eventually fade away

but walls dont talk

dont they?

---

if this second was your life

what would you do?

If this second was your life

I would love you

if this second was your life

would you love me?

if this second was my life
I would happily die

did you long for summertime
when you were growing up?

one warm second it's suddenly gone

gone .

i wanna know what its like...

no more time to waste

theres is so little time, i feel like im wasting it, feels like time is just not enough.

i really do think that whatever in life we find worth living for is worth the risks involved.

i mean, if you feel like doing something then just do it. dont regret anything you do. choices you make will lead you to where you are now and you wont have to think back later on and wish you would have done things in a different way.

sometimes, some things dont make sense, and we cant really explain why in our hearts it does. you just gotta follow that gut feeling. we really dont have time to waste to hesitate upon things we face, hesitating just hinders us from living life.

im almost 20 years old and i still dont know the meaning of life. i mean alright, get an education, love my family and treat people as you want to be treated yourself. eventually find someone and settle down, build a family and then what? what happens then? what happens when you reach your dreams and find out that it wasnt what you expected it to be and you find yourself lost without any goals? i mean from a bigger picture, whats the point in it? to be happy to be sad...

everything is in motion because of the competition people have with one another. who has the better job, who has a house, a dog, who has biggest breasts.

man is greedy, we always strive for more, never satisfied enough. but atleast its getting us somewhere, although greed can cause us a lot of misery too.

well i dont know... maybe you could share your opinion? i mean, anything.

i will be catching up with my history lessons this weekend, starting out with south america.

a friend of mine told me a few interesting things about the history of his country colombia and the neighboring countries in latin america.

this is him by the way =) haha his name is isaac. hes a real nice person.

off to bed now, goodnight .

A map is more unreal
Than where you've been
Or how you feel
And it's impossible to tell
How important something was
And what you might have missed out on
And how it might have changed it all

And did I, miss out on you?

I was out for a drink in a soho bar
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
He rose out of his seat like a painted ghost
He was the man that I wanted the most

And as he reached for my arm I gave him my hand
I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand'
Let me sign

As I walked through the door he was still in my head
As I entered the room he was laid there in bed
He reached out for me all twisted in black
I was on my way down, never coming back
Let me sign

Can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

hello

ive just gotten back from my almost two week holiday break from the internet!

lol. i'll tell you, it is much harder to live without our modern technology than what it used to be haha. i found it very difficult, especially since we don't have anything better to do except for cleaning and unpacking things in the new house.

it had only been exacly 14 days and i've had nearly 300 emails (mostly from youtube <3)

anyways, during this time i have been working on a few songs now, and i am trying to put something nice together for my fellow followers on youtube!

will be posting it up as soon as im done editing some bits and pieces.

i wrote a song on the 6th of sep and starting recording on it yesterday where i added some tombak and finger snap, some decent harmonies and sick lyrics. hahaha i hope u'll like it cuz im REALLY EXCITED about it!

ya im getting pretty tired atm, i have a few other things to tell you as well but i'll save that for later ;)

ciao