copied out of Perez Hiltons blog

Oh boy, oh boy! Get excited Twilighters! We're hearing from an actual cast member that there should be THREE more Twilight movies coming our way after New Moon!

Recently casted Boo Boo Stewart (yes, that's really his name, and, no, he isn't related to K-Stew) spilled the beans in a recent interview that as far as he knows, the big wigs are planning on five total Twilight movies.

With only four books, that suggests two options. The more likely option is that the final novel, Breaking Dawn, will be turned into two films, something that author, Stephenie Meyer has suggested.

The second, more exciting option, could be that a whole new story may be in the works for another film/book. How much would you Twilighters love that?!

By the way, Boo Boo will be playing Seth Clearwater, the youngest boy in the werewolf pack.

theres something about tonight, the air feels so sweet on my tong, warm and dense. it wasnt even chilly as it usually gets at night.

i was out walking my dog a bit in the neighborhood, had totally forgot about the time when i saw how dark it was outside.

i like how quiet it gets though at late hours and no one else is outside.

you could see the stars very clearly tonight.

just finished watching "catch me if you can" - fantastic film - i recommend it.

well apart from that i dont have anything else to share with you

oh yeah! i also started recording on my song earlier this evening. i think i'll make a video of it.

talk soon

x

New Song !

Hey guys,

I've just uploaded a new song on Youtube today :)

Check me up

beautiful like a rainbow

im listening to true colors cover by ane brun, a norwegian singer.

2day its raining. thank god for that haha, ive missed the rain. i was walking my dog when it first started pouring haha soaking me and my dog kara. we took shelter in the woods which seemed to look even more green in the rain.

i wanna walk out into it again

im gonna go eat a little now and prepare karas meal as well.

write again soon

x

the reason to why im so obsessed with TWILIGHT!

time is almost 5 am and i just finished watching twilight.

im so excited for new moon, i hope the budged they have made out will be put to make it better than the first sequel , some effects they have made look so artificial.

i was listening to let me sign in the end when edward is sucking out the venom out of bellas wrist. it brings out weird emotions, i keep thinking of myself and where i was during that time when i saw the film for the first time.

and where i am now. it reminds me of how i felt and what i was dealing with. and so when i listen to that songi can practically feel how i felt in a way that i cant really explain.

its almost like im realizing now how badly depressed i was at the time.

i dont know what else would have saved me from it but reading those books did it. couldnt have found a better way to distract myself.

anyways...

im off to bed, well i am literally in my bed right now haha - i need to wake up early today i slept to much last time.

gn mwah

the first love

im lying on my bed now and writing. i've put my computer on the floor and have just finished watching a film starring robert pattinson called How to Be.

very.. weird film. the boy feels so lonely and unloved. all he wants is for his parents to show him some affection but it seems that everybody just keeps neglecting him and he feels more lonely than ever.

wow i wonder if i will ever get that lonely.

i bet i wont ever find me someone who would love me, things like that just never happens.

but i do wish.

hah. huh. maybe im just one of those unfortunate people who will just be unhappy in the end. that would be so typical me. my miserable life - with a dramatic ending

anyways, i was just thinking of my friend - as i was having my analytical moment about the future. its a guy i know that was together with a girl his age and they were in love with each other when they were 17. but the catch was that she wasnt allowed to be with him because her family didnt approve of their relationship. anyways, they tried for a year or so, but it got really hard and so they ended up breaking up.

he told me he didnt have any other choice and that he only wanted her to be happy.

today its been 5 years and he says he still feels the same about her.

his first love

what if you never get over it? what if you wont find someone as amazing as that person your heart desires is?

am i being too corny again? i think its the late hour. i usually start saying weird things around this time.

why do people say that the eyes reflect our soul? can anyone answer that question?

seriously, take a minute to just think about the meaning of it. i just did.

----

i just took another minute haha.

i'd want to stare into someones eyes right now. have it ever occurred to you how beautiful eyes are? maybe eyes are honest, if you ever take your time to look into someones eyes you'll notice how deep some peoples eyes are. as if theres some hidden secrete beneath. things we dont usually tell anyone, but you can see the mind that lies behind the eyes.

im gonna watch twilight now, and then go to bed. my mom and dad are leaving to sweden tomorrow to visit my sister and bring home my other sister nina back.

goodnight for now

i wonder what secrets you have, would i ever get to hear them from you again?

2 down 2 to go

oh damndamndamn! this exam KILLED ME it was SO HARD! :O

SHIT! AND THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE THE EASIEST ONE!
AHHHH hahahahhahaha its so insane i think im gonna die, or no i cant even be bothered to die right now im just too tired even for that its too much of an effort i slept 3 hours last night and tonight wont be any better from what ive just experienced today i would predict a very catastrophic day tomorrow...

sitting in the library again, i wish i could take a picture of all the staring hindues but that would be rude of me
NOT THAT THEY CARE CUZ THEY ARE RUDE ENOUGH TO STARE DAMN IT
hahahahaha omg good bye

Sometimes we are just too stuck up to notice those little things that matter

Listen to what the white ninja has to offer you

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sky

kind of

in the mood for creativity

dilute my feelings by writing songs

when all seems to look upside down

in music we trust no doubt .

1 down - 3 do go

sitting in the library right now, just finished my exam.
im tired and hungry and now im going to start revising for my next exam which is due tomorrow.
this is the only one i know the best
anyways, ill update later when i get home tonight because people here are watching me real intensly. hahahaha

mwah

ooooh i cant go any further than this
ooooh i want you so badly
its my biggest wish
BEP - Meet me halfway

New Original Song Lyrics

i wrote this song just a few hours ago. after have written it on the paper, i had to write down the date. 12 aug/09. thats when it hit me. today is exactly one year since we moved the to the uk from sweden. i dont know what the deal is with all these dates, but its kind of freaky. i haven't been able to complete a song in a while now, however this song took me no more than 20 minutes.

i will post a video of me singing it as soon as i can, meanwhile i've posted up the lyrics for you to read.

do comment and tell me what you think!

x

I turn to you

In a moonless night

But you say we've run out of time

I ask why

But you wont open up your heart

You say "baby don't you start"

"I can't risk falling apart"

"I'm not strong enough to mend my heart"

Again

You're doing it again

Lead me here again

Let go again

You break my heart again

And again

I watch as you leave

The first, second time now we're up to three

I walk but stumble as I just realize

There's no more you and me

But if time was timeless

Would you take me as I am?

If pain was painless

Would you have faith in love again?

Again

Your doing it again

Lead me here again

Let go again

You break my heart again

i miss you .

why is it so hard for you to get that i just wanna be close?

i walked the dog around 7.30 am. walking around with my eyes closed almost. haha

went home at 8 am, tried to read some but got tired and slept in my bed until just now. woke up 1.50 pm.

im drinking my lovely tea and having stomach ache.

Ayda - Origin and Meaning of the name The girl name Ayda is pronounced as -AYDah. Ayda is mainly used in the Arabic language and it is of Old French origin. Ayda is a variant form of the English, Arabic, Italian, and Spanish name Aida. Arabic: Reward, helper; one who brings benefits and advantages Persian: Pure, beloved

i feel sick.

physically sick and mentally, mostly mentally.

ahhh sick and tired of all of this bs

its amazing how much you get hindered by your emotions how it can limit your freedom

im not free in my mind free in my soul im just in this emotional agony allthefreakintime!

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im tired and i dont know what to say i need to do something but i dont know what it is i wish i was in sweden right now so i could go for a walk in the dark hahaha im soo excited for the move....

... looking good summer 08

this ones on me lol

1october 08, the day before my breakdown

almost 3 months since the move.

my shoes had gotten to big for me .

Happy birthday! <3

THIS BLOG WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PUBLISHED YESTERDAY BUT IT NEVER DID :S

oh gosh i just ate some "manna gryn" (see picture) and im soooo full.

ive been gaining a lot of weight lately, or at least it feels that way.

ive finally finished reading about different metabolism pathways and have just recently started on the genetics section...

just now my mom asked me to go outside and place some stuff back in the garage. as i opened the door and stepped out i went into a spider web and when i turned around the f*cking monster was climbing up the wall beside my door. shit shit shit shit i hate those damn spiders, and this one had a lot of meat on and short crawling legs and it was red and yellow and ehuwi and goowi. i seriously almost had an heart attack!!!

i had to use a piece of a newspaper to shield myself from walking into that nest again or from that spider that might get the idea of jumping onto me and bite.

my dog was outside at this time already and watc

hing me as i was doing my couragous performance. he must of wondered what the hell i was doing. i bet i looked like an idiot to him.

look at this freaking spider look at how meaty it is and hairy too!

i get the chills just by looking at it

*uuuuh*

ANYWAYS I WOULD ALSO LIKE TO CONGRATULATE MY DEAREST FRIEND PAULA ON HER 20TH BIRTHDAY! HAPPY B-DAY BABE I LOVE YOU!!!!

You can check her blogg as well on

http://www.mami89.blogg.se

Ok i better continue to read now before i get tired which i already am...

byeeeeeeee

tony braxton - how could an angel break my heart

I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me

How could an angel break my heart?

Why didnt he catch my falling star

I wish I didnt wish so hard

Maybe I wished our love apart

How could an angel break my heart?

random old pics

this was from our old house in sweden spring 2008. i had cut my hair that day...

i think this was the worst state of me, taken in autumn of 2008. i was a lot thinner at that period of time

my sister is trying to be dramatic...

... but shes better off looking pissed...

heres me again. i dont know when this is, but is was during winter time late 08 early 09

a more recent picture, just before i left to sweden in june 09

ok goodnight now! x

lovely day

i just ate dinner and im real full and satisfied. the sun has passed to the south side of the sky and is shining through my window now as its about to set. my room is untidy, we've removed the iron bed frame and so im just sleeping on my madras on the floor now.

im reading a little more about metabolism, anabolism to be more precise. the krebs cycle and glycolysis amongst others (very boring).

then ill be moving on to catabolism which is the opposite ; the breaking down of larger and more complex molecules ---> smaller ones. the whole point of metabolism is so that energy is synthesized so that living cells can utilize it. anabolic metabolization "builds up" our organs and tissues such as muscle growth. its a unit used for growth basically.

yeah i dont know if that was interesting to read lol but i find it intriguing when i eventually get it.

***2 hours later***

brushing my teeth again. lol, was watching a film starring vincent vahn or whatever his name is. 

ive been forgetting to use my retainer (or just been lazy honestly) so my front teeth have become deformed again lol, i just put it on now.

ok enough for tonight, 

im off to bed now

peace .

white ninja

b b b b b b o o o o o o r e d .

randoms

hahaha mikael

he doesnt like to be on pictures

this was the second time i saw him since elementary school when i was 15

which was about 3 years prior to that day.

you can check him out on this video, hes the one that beatboxes - and he also produced the song they're performing with.

The guy rapping is called Renato.

peace out!

!!!

damn you! DAMN YOU!

time flies

brushing my teeth atm, about to sleep soon.
been reading about nuceotides and organells of the cells and their functions. gah.

im so tired.

i was searching for some pics of the new house we're moving too so i thought id share them

its a very nice house, can't wait til we move, only 3 weeks left (26th of aug)!

my dog is lying beside me on my bed now, licking my leg haha poor thing. hes hasnt been eating properly since yesterday.

the days are passing by real quick now, it feels like im wasting them away and doing stuff i shouldnt be doing.

gotta read eclispe now before i get too tired hehe

goodnight! :)

in the quivering forest

Im sitting in my room, having a glass of wine along with some popcorn and listening to fleet foxes - blue ridge mountains. its such a beautiful song.

Today my cousin from turkey came to our place for lunch. she is in london right now with her students from school (shes a teacher in english) and

 their on a language-trip (dont know if thats the right word for it in english?). anyways, that was nice. shell be coming back on saturday as well before she leaves.

i called my grandma in turkey as well, havent been talking with her for about 3 months now. i've missed her. im looking for plane tickets right now so i can go and visit her for a week early in september.

***2 hours later***

uhm, i just finished watching terminator 2 - judgement day lol

im going to bed soon. tired, and want to read eclipse. my dog is in my room and he wants me to scratch his ears haha.

This picture was taken of me in our old apartment in sweden, i think it was 2006? i was 16 and went the first year of high school. Paula took the picture.

Im going to slack now

Ciao

Your name:
Ayda

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
Yes

How many girlfriends/ boyfriends have told you they love you..
3

Do u like somebody?
:)

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurt?
Yes

Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
Yeah, I guess

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
I think I'm happy both ways

Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?
Yeah

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yeah

Have you ever broken someone's heart?
I supose

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?

Some things I've done were unnecessary, but I don't regret anything in perticular.

Think any of your ex's feel the same?
I'm not sure anymore

Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
I am

Have you dated people who were not good to you?
Yes

Have you been in an abusive relationship?
hehehe define abusive

Have you dated someone older than you?
i've never dated to be honest

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Only if they regret doing it

Ever been given an engagement ring?
No

Do you want to get married?
Someday maybe

Has anyone ever told you they wanted to marry you?
In an indirect way yea

Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
hahaha uhm.. no i dont think so

Have any of your ex's told you they regret breaking up with you?
Yeah

Would you believe your ex if she/he said they love you?
dont know

Would you date your best male/female friend?
haha no way thats so gay

Have any of your exes called you by a nickname after the break up?

What?no

Do you regret any of your relationships?
naaaa

nice girls are boring

twice i turned my back on you

i fell flat on my face and i lost .

Thought I had an answer once
But your random ways swept me along

This is a new cover i made by Little Dragon. They are a Swedish band that originate from my hometown -Gothenburg! Yeah! I love the weariness in the song. It's really nice..

I just finished drinking my tea along with half a muffin, and I'm soon off to bed to read a little from the eclipse book.

I wish I could have something to drink and then go out for a walk in town. But this place doesn't even have busses going this late, they stop going at like 7. stupid small town. ah well, we're moving soon anyways. im going to miss the woods. its close to where we live, i usually walk my dog around there. i love the green colors, walking around in a forest is somehow very distressing. i've always thought there's something magical about places like that. haha

i've been reading a little about the liver and the renal system, its quite interesting when you finally get it haha.

well i dont know what else to say now so imma just say goodnight for now 

X

 

just take one day at a time and you'll be fine, dont overthink it!!

dream

i slept bad last night.

i hate that stupid bed of mine, the madras is too damn hard that it makes my body sour the day after. i was supposed to sleep early so i would be able to wake up at 8 but that didnt happen.

ended up waking up at around ten to wash my dog from his morning walk. ate some breakfast (i think), and went and sat on the couch with my mom until then fell asleep again. i felt too weak, i couldnt keep my eyes open.

slept for the three hours. and i had some real nice dreams. i dreamt about edward from twilight haha LOL, it was really weird. why didnt i dream of him the whole night? i was bella in my dream, and he was exactly the same, except that he could fly as well! hahaha, he would hold me and we would fly around. i dont remember exactly what was happening, but suddenly my friend jesus was there, and we were going up to my hotel room together, it was night. outside my room there were a bunch of girl sitting in the lobby, i think i was looking for edward, and i called his name because i couldnt find him. and jesus had dragged me away from the lobby because the girls were laughing at me because they knew i was blabbing about the vampire from twilight. 

then out of nowhere he comes up to me on the street and takes me to his arms and away into the sky hahahaha

well up in the sky i spotted the girls and they saw me flying so edward went toward them with full speed, almost like he was gonna bump into the group of girls. they were chocked because they didnt believe me at first when i had told them about him. when we got real close edward turned up again and we continued with the flying.

this is fcking corny i cant believe im acually writing this down

but it felt real good, and when i woke up i felt really rested.

anyways, im going to be on the TESCO CD with my song "Someday", so thats very exciting.

they will be distributing 200 000 copies of the CD in Tesco stores all over britain!

and about the competition on 1click2fame - i got to 4th place. its a shame i didnt get through to the next round, if i had been 3rd i would compete again but for 100 000 pounds in april 2010 i believe.

ah well, i guess thats life, but im so happy that i even got up that high in the competition. i'd want to thank all of those who took their time to vote for me, THANK YOU SO MUCH!

my mom had given me my keyboard to my precious iMac now, but only temporary. i think i will post another video on youtube soon.

i feel very content at the moment, unlike yesterday. maybe its because of the dream, or maybe its the lovely weather. i can feel the sun shining on my back from my bedroom window as im writing this now.

anyways, this was a very long and boring and mostly a pointless blog, i dont know if you've bothered reading it this far.

hope you all have a nice day!

ayda

as we walk on by

another lonely night, i feel depressed .

about to go to sleep now, sick of my thoughts, keep reflecting, keep thinking all the damn time
its annoying me.
im thinking of reading eclipse just to keep my mind of myself because the thoughts are like poison.
i know i'll just end up thinking about it until i sleep anyway, but im going to read because hopefully then my emotions wont be too intense. lol
do i even make sense to you reading?

what is life what am i doing here and why are things the way they are and not how they should be? why can't i have what i want? what do i want? love?
stupid thoughts, stupid mind, stupid emotion, i sometimes wonder what im even holding on to, its some kind of invisible rope, i feel it there, but its not... officially there, but i know its there? at least thats what i feel, or maybe i dont know whats real anymore since im apparently not normal so it might just be my mind playing tricks

i dont really care, im just gonna hold on to it until i end up to blame myself when i get my feelings hurt. i wish i could be cynical.
lol im so dramatic, i dont even know what im talking about anymore

i think im going to go read that damn book now, and tomorrow maybe i'll go to the kickboxing club and do some serious damage to my body hahaha

***

Words of Wisdom:

we are all naked against the truth
we are all crazy fooles, especially when it comes to someting we want.

some people are just too damn afraid to show it
goodnight .