CHANGES!

today i had my first day at the "fish and chips" store hahahaha wow.

better than nothing really.

and now i smell ... fish!

hahaha

i've even familiarized myself with some new fish.

but anyways, the wage is shit so im not going to stay there any longer.

my dad actually called me this morning from his work and told me that there is a job available as a dental nurse at his surgery. so i'm going to take distant courses in that area to get a certificate.

and TOMORROW IS THE NEW MOON PREMIER - AND I WILL MISS IT CAUSE IM WORKING!

DAMN IT! haha...

yeah well, thats my day. i gotta take a shower now - i stink.

PEACE AND LOVE!

Ayda

funny

life.

so many changes, i change skin and enter new phases.

all these faces seem unreal,

would i know the world for the way it is or is it actually unclear?

this late afternoon i was taking a walk thru the park and the dawn was breaking into dark and i was thinking as i watched my dog running around making his marks (lol)

how,

its funny how i've made it

and money didn't save me

honey never stood where he needed to claim me

-

now the time is mine

rise and shine

time is mine baby, rise and shine.

peace

what a waste of the day.

stupid rain. its been raining since yesterday and the weather is cold and gray.

stupid day.

STUPID DAY!

im at home again because of some stupid damn incident like this.

i hate this day i HATE IT

wuah.

wawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawawwwwwww

and im sick aswell

now that just makes it better doesn't it?

gah.

stupid day.

dilemma

funny haha.

ive been loosing a lot of hair lately. i dont know why, but when i asked my dad today on our way home from the gym he told me that it might have to do with stress.

i never considered that thought, i dont think im that stressed.

but i do tend to underestimate myself sometimes. but i mean, i dont.. feel stressed?

yeah okay, i'm facing some difficulty in my personal life in regards to what i want to be doing with it but i dont know. maybe that really is a major issue and im just minimizing it..

i really feel confused, i dont know what to with my life, which way to choose and what is the best thing to do. it makes me unproductive and these past months ive been wondering around in an evil circle which has made me pretty destructive. i have ideas in my head, but nothing ever gets far enough to be put in action.

ah..

the dilemma.

but it feels good to have been working out though!

tomorrow im going to h&m's to buy me some socks! haha.

peace and love

sunday

its an early afternoon and its been raining all morning. the perfect sunday.

i really do love the rain, its so cosy.

my body is all sore from the training yesterday. especially

my back and belly, but it feels really good. did i tell you we arranged a membership at the gy

m now? its great! they even have a basketball court you ca

n book time and play. and my dad has also put me and my younger sister

in tennis practice.

then

we got home, and finally went to the re

staurant (we never went last time)

on

our way home..

(lol i just wanted you to check out the shoes HAHA)